The Longing

 What now?

I think i got so familiar with losing that at this point i think im good a

t it, makes me wonder would i be able to see when i'm winning or would just winning be a tragedy i think it might take away the ambition, i have lost in so many areas in my life and still i never flinched nor gave up, it's like  i'm looking for something i dont know what it is but still i'm looking, it's like starving for something you've never tasted before that insane kind of hunger. I dont know what i should do next but i know i can't see what looking for yet and so i continue wandering and roaming around for that one thing and once i grab hold of it i wanna feel how it is to achieve something so great you wanna hold on to it for a lil bit longer.

But for now i ask myself what should i do next.