To love a broken man

 “Care for my wounds, can you do that for me?” 

“But i cant do that” 

“just one last time cassy... Just stay here one last conversation ask me...(sigh) ask me that one thing you always wanted to know” 

With tears falling from her eyes. And a sudden quietness filled the room for a minute and finally she asks “were you... Able to finally meet her again and if yes was it worth it?”

With the wind rain falling so hard hiding the tears from both their face he stares at the ground like he sees her face all over again so graphic

“it was back in 2014 i was so in love... It didn't make sense i didnt even know her middle name i saw her i knew i'll be complete” he laughs a little and continues “ i knew i would be complete when i have her as my family, never saw a friend in her she could never be just a friend to me, nah!. My mom liked her you know, i talked about her a lot, i think about her a lot that she's become a part of me the thought of her torments me because i know i'll never see her again” cassy looks puzzled ann lost now “what do you mean you'll never see her again?” 

“uhhh she's gone cassy she's gone...” and cassy just sits there weeping and she whispers "i... I love you caleb and it's been a while now” caleb knowingly replies “ i know,  and i've known for  some time  now, see cassy i spend most of my time alone and I've leanrt to observe and I've noticed the way you love me it's acaice that i don't deserve it and still it makes me so scared that I don't know whether to leave you or stay but i want you here with me so bad it doesn't make sense with me I'm in cohuites with my feelings right now i love you too cassy you understand me you know me and you know how to take care of me, yet i can't seem to forget her and you know that ” 

“but did you finally get to meet her?” 

“yes and no i met her but i stood near her grave and I've had a death wish from that moment just to lay down only with the soil  on my chest, but I've been told there's heaven and hell and that's how i know I'll never see her again, because im such a mess and the life i live doesn't deserve that heaven”  he tries to stand up but he is still in pain and he continues “ you know when i stood there looking at that tombstone a part of me died with her i couldn't feel a thing.. I didnt know what happened I've been gone for so long it was naive of me to think I'll come back and she'll still be waiting on me. We don't choose who we fall inlove with, but we can choose who we want to spend the rest of our lives with. Remember that day you called me in the middle of the night i was in a club with my friends, josh and Chris it was cold that night you knew i was drunk and you are coming to pick me up and you did i spent the night at your place that night. I remember sleeping on your bed next to you, we didnt do anything but just slept i woke up that night looked at you and thought 'why would you care so much about me when I'm such a mess'. You so good to me cassy so good but then you were just a friend to me. 

“but you were never just a friend to me” 

They both realize the inevitable that they are both stuck with each other somehow. And on that night it began.