That yellow jacket

 That intense kinda love 

I havent found it yet but i think i figured it out, i think i know now what i want and i just got to filter out everything that isn't it. Theres a story i like to tell see i met a girl back in varsity breathtakingly stunning never had her only had what i didn't see coming and so my story with her wasnt really a story it was more like a hint. i met someone else dated her everything i knew was love was there with me, for some time felt it will never end but it did and time passed and the world i don't know  whether it's playing a trick on me but i saw that yellow jacket again only this time it's so far from me i feel like i got it yet i dont yeah i do call her from time to time but distance took a lot from me now i'm so scared that maybe my one and i we can only express our love for each other through emojis and maybe i'll never get the chance to have her scent on my sheets and not get the chance to actually have a dining experience with her and tell her of what i've been doing and listen to what she's been up to all through a bottle of chardonay and to tell her that i want that kind of love with her that i miss her when she's in other room yet in the house you know that kind of love that makes me forget all the problems i have, i like to think that kind of love still exist but this girl is something special to me that i dont know if it's the idea of love that i could have with her that makes me think of her this much or is it just a story that began but i dont know how to finish writing it because i don't know what is next. So if there is another chapter i wonder when will it be the perfect time to turn the page and continue or will it be like an athlete that got injured midst of the race never really got to see the end so he just waits for someone worthy to get the medal at podium and stare in envy of what could have been his and he realizes that he was the lead if only the distance was short he would have finished victorious and stood at the podium wore that yellow jacket he wanted so bad. 

Maybe just maybe hope will resurrect.